Betsy C’s Weblog

Trying to grow as an individual while growing connected.

Week 3 – Tuesday July 2, 2008

7/1/08

Well, today felt like a setback.  My knees have been stiff since the 5 mile Sunday run/walk.  But they aren’t too sore, just stiff, so I thought I’d be able to do a little running today.  Nope.  I couldn’t run for more than about a minute and a half at a time without feeling like my knees were going to buckle.  I guess I pushed a little too hard on Sunday, but I also think to some extent this is how progress is made.  I’m trying to stay right at the boundary between pushing myself and pushing too hard – trying to find the limit and stay just inside it.

I also find myself getting a little bored of the gym and the treadmill, partially because the place is empty when I’m there.  I’m missing out on the cohort aspect of the training right now, and would like to find others who are training like I am and at my level.  Luckily, I’ve heard through the Team in Training network that there is at least one other person training with a run/walk format right now.  I’m going to see if I can fit into her training for some companionship, and hopefully start to get to know the paths and roads of York!

Between the knee pain and social engagements over the long weekend, I think I’ll just give my knees a couple days of rest.  I did the elliptical for quite a while once I gave up on running, and at least that gave my muscles a nice workout.  Maybe I’ll stick with that for a couple days and have a couple days of just plain rest, then come back to try running again next week.  I think I’ll also talk to some people about no-impact exercises for strengthening the muscles around the knee.  Seems to me when I was young and doing ballet someone recommended some exercises like this.  Potentially helpful.

All around I’m tired and kind of dejected this week, and the knee problems fit in with that.  Oh well, the sun is shining and I’m sure the mood will lift soon.  And ultimately, even though this trip to the gym was disappointing, it still felt good to get some exercise and I’m not sorry I went!  Setbacks are a part of working through a challenge.

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Week 3 – Sunday June 30, 2008

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6/29/08 

Today I think I made real progress!  I did about 5 miles (half running, half walking) without too much problem.  There only seems to be soreness in my right knee now, and even that is noticeably less frequent and less painful when I’m running.  I was amazed when I realized there were times that I was zoning out, just running without thinking about it!  Up until now I was completely aware of every step – focusing so hard on each step, on how awkward my whole body felt.  Now it’s starting to feel a little bit natural.

This feeling of progress makes for great positive feedback in the training – I’m inspired to keep trying, keep training, even more than I have been so far.

 

Week 2 – Thursday

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6/26/08

Still struggling.  Today I cut out the elliptical work and did only treadmill.  I could only do about 3.5 miles of half running half walking before my knees were sending me signals to stop.  I’m naturally prone to backing away from things that I can’t do well right from the start, but I’m learning to kick that mindset and keep pushing on.  Normally I’m not a big responder to a challenge, but I’m embracing this one!

I guess I’m taking baby steps with my physical progress, and the mental progress is happening simultaneously.  I can’t help thinking this will serve me in the future, dealing with challenges.  Here, I have a choice – I decided to sign up and I could quit if I wanted to with little consequence.  But this seems like such great training to learn how to mentally deal with challenges in the future that I don’t have a choice about. 

Again, I can’t help thinking of how this experience is in some ways similar, on a much smaller, much less crucial scale, to the experience of those we’re fundraising for.  I’m learning to understand, not just getting physically fit.

 

Week 2 – Tuesday

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6/24/08

Another promising day at the gym.  The knee pain is still in soreness mode, without any of the severe pain that was making it impossible to run.  I’m not pushing too hard because there is still soreness, but I’m slowly getting my joints accustomed to running.  Again, I did a combination of elliptical (for low impact) and walk/run.

I’m really nervous about being off the schedule and a little behind (that’s the OCD part of me), but also very excited that I’m headway into this process.  I guess starting something new is the hardest part, and it’s not so easy to hit a rhythm with training.  I may be flirting with finding that rhythm – really looking forward to it.  I’m just trying to stay positive and see the small bits of progress rather than focusing on the huge amount of work ahead of me that’s yet to be done.  That feels insurmountable, so I think I have to keep breaking this into tiny tasks.  I seem to be doing this in my mind.  First, the task is “go to the gym”.  The next task is “get through the elliptical warm up”.  Once I’m running the tasks are even smaller – I keep telling myself to do 30 more seconds of running, or to make it from 1.5 to 2.0 miles.  There must be a lot of mental side to running, because this really helps.

BTW, I love icing my knees and ankles!  It feels great.  I love to sit in my living room with ice packs strapped to both knees.  I can’t tell if it’s making a difference in my running ability, but everyone who knows about running seems to swear by it.

 

Day 5 of training June 19, 2008

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I’m still struggling with the initial barrier of learning to run (and getting into the right kind of shape for running).  My knees have been hurting pretty badly since the weekend, and it makes running impossible.  Yesterday I did another very brisk walk for a while, but it didn’t feel like hard enough exercise.  While my knees hurt and running is difficult, at least I want to start improving my cardio and pulmonary endurance.

So this morning I used the elliptical machine for the first time.  I didn’t love it – the motion is too small for me.  I’m pretty tall and have long-ish legs, so I would have liked a bigger ellipse.  But at least it got my heartrate up and made me sweat.  I did 2.5 miles worth of ellipses (??) without hurting my knees.  This could be a good Plan B til I’m able to deal with the impact again.

Mentally, I’m still having doubts, but not ready to give up.  I’m worried that my body, particularly my joints, might not be able to take on running at age 35.  To make matters worse, I’m about to send out fundraising letters where I tell everyone I’m running this race.  I guess worst case scenario would be still doing the half marathon, but with significant walking.  But I think I refuse to be deafeated in that way – there must be a way to get myself into running.  I just don’t have any experience with running, so I’m struggling to find the path that gets me there.

 

Day 3 of training June 18, 2008

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Well, it’s rough so far.  The area just below my knees has been sore since Sunday’s run/walk.  Monday I decided to rest, and Tuesday evening I tried to do some running on a treadmill at my gym.  I could walk well enough, but as soon as there was the impact of jogging, my knees hurt.  I walked for a while, and it seemed to help loosen things up in general.  The pain in my knees was unfamiliar, so I didn’t try to work through it and run anyway.  We’ll see if it heals enough to run on Wednesday.

I’m really thrown for a loop by all this.  I had no idea how difficult it is to get into the swing of things when it comes to running.  I’m starting to doubt whether it was a good idea to sign up for a half marathon – running seems so hard on the body.  But I’m definitely not giving up yet.  It’s too early in the process to think I have any idea of the outcome.  Challenges always start out hardest at the beginning, right?  I hope so, and I hope this starts to feel better soon!

 

Day 1 of Training June 15, 2008

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…and I’m full of doubts!  Things have been busy the past few weeks, so I haven’t done the pre-training like I should have.  I’m mildly asthmatic, and it’s exercise-induced.  Today was a bit disastrous – I didn’t really warm up my poor lungs before starting to run, and they were furious.

It was hard to be the one who couldn’t breathe and couldn’t keep up with the group.  To be perfectly frank, it was humiliating.  My natural instinct as a perfectionist is to desert this challenge, since I’m not doing perfectly from the start.  But I’ve learned in my yoga practice about having patience, and keeping a calm, positive mindset even when things aren’t going well.  This is a great chance for me to practice that.  Showing up again when I’ve made a fool of myself is the person I want to be.  Pushing on (in a smart way) to get in better shape through hard work is the person I want to be.

The organizers of Team in Training keep reminding us of why we’re doing this too – it’s not about learning to run, it’s about fundraising for cancer research and support services.  Keeping that in mind helps me on brutal day 1.  First, TnT puts things in perspective by reminding me what people with cancer have to push through.  If they can be strong enough, mentally and physically, to deal with cancer treatment, surely I can train for a half marathon.  The second benefit is feeling connected.  There was a team of people during the run today being unconditionally supportive, not judging my ability level at all.  Beyond that, I think we all feel connected to those who have run and raised money before us, those who have worked for cancer research and support services, and those who have faced blood cancers.

So even though Day 1 was a slap in the face, I’m feeling pretty good and looking forward to tomorrow on the treadmill at 6am when I get one step closer to running a half marathon with a purpose.